I did something for myself and I am really excited about it. I started a health vlog YouTube channel and it’s really an accountability check because I am someone who cannot get it together in the wellness department. At 41 years old, you’d think I’d be able to figure it out by now. Well, that’s just not the case.
I try to eat better and I crash and burn. I join the gym and I never go. Also, I say I am going to do Whole 30 and I find myself eating two slices of pizza by noon. I cannot pinpoint what my problem is exactly. I feel like it’s more of a mental block. I need a break! Also, I can sneak what I do because nobody is looking. I can fail myself over and over again because I am only hurting my body – not anyone else’s.
I Started A Health Vlog YouTube Channel
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Well, I had an idea.
I would have to admit that I didn’t actually go for a walk even though I tweeted that I wanted to a few hours ago. The Internet enables you to hold a really false sense of accomplishment at times. You can say, “I feel like going for a walk this morning! What a beautiful day!” And maybe, I actually DID feel like going for a walk when I wrote that tweet … but I usually never end up WALKING because my body and mind never synch up. If I record my days, it’s a great way for me to prove to myself that it DID NOT HAPPEN which will, in turn, give me the push I need to start working on an action plan.
I’m tired of failing myself.
And so, I finally did what I thought needed to be done. I started a health vlog. A simple one – one with zero expectations tied to it. I’m not committing to running a marathon at the end of the year – like most do – because we all know that I won’t. Instead, I committed to being more conscious about the decisions I make.
From this day moving forward, I promise to think about what I eat and about how often I move on a daily basis.
I am going to listen to my body and watch what II consume. I am going to make real decisions every day and not mindlessly go through life ordering through drive-throughs.
No one is going to take care of this body except for me and I thought that a health vlog will really allow me to see what I am doing every single day. I am not filming all day because that’s just not realistic, but I am documenting my inner thoughts and my struggles. I am documenting what I learn as I learn it. Hopefully, I can help someone else who also feels stuck like me.
Vera Eats a Salad – that will never happen. But it’s something to strive towards. It’s the end goal. It is the bikini photo you plop on your fridge to deter you from grabbing the ice cream. It’s the name that I have to write in my URL bar every single time I need to upload something. Hopefully, subconsciously it will do something to me. It’s better than Vera eats a donut… which is what I really want. LOL!
I’m not a fit woman. I was never an athlete. I was never on a team. I’m not the girl that needs 20 minutes a day to feel good. Honestly, I never wake up wanting to squeeze anything in. I don’t crave the release. I don’t want to do anything. ZERO. But I know I need to be. I need to move and I need to do better. Also, I need to be someone who cares. I don’t know how I am going to get there, but I will. One upload at a time.