Daily Diary: A Death That I Just Can’t Shake
Robin Williams – we all heard the news by now. I cried last night in bed as I tried to fall asleep. Not because I knew him because obviously I didn’t. But because he spent so much time making us all laugh even though he was hurting inside. And I guess I understood that. That facade.
Put on a happy face.
Take off the gloomy mask of tragedy,
It’s not your style;
You’ll look so good that you’ll be glad
Ya’ decide to smile!
I hate that song. Because it has that “sweep it under the rug” mentality that is the foundation to suicide. I have two friends that committed suicide. You probably didn’t know that because I don’t talk about these sort of things, but they are real.
So Robin – despite all his comedy and all his humor and all his smiles – was really sad and lonely. I’m not surprised. I’m really not. I’m utterly depressed by it all… but I’m not surprised. I ache for him and for his family.
I can’t write much more about this because I am crying again and I don’t have it in me to do this for another day. I am not someone who can just switch emotions. A bad day is a bad day and nothing can really turn it around. So, at 8:40AM, I am going to try to shake it off and not dive in too deep.
But Robin – you will be missed and you will always be remembered. And our loss is a great one.
Thank you for giving yourself to us all. Thank you for making me laugh and for making my children laugh. And thank you for letting us be a part of your life.